I've Been Gone Way Too Long

Well I am now in my last year of college, on to being a Early Childhood Educator. So much has happened and so much has changed. I can honestly say I am ready to hibernate for winter.

So far I have failed and passed classes, I have made new friends and also lost those new friends, and so much more. College is crazy with changes. I don't live at home anymore, it is a mind blowing difference. I can honestly say I am glad I did go through with going to college, even if I do have days when I wish I wasn't here anymore. My Christmas Holiday is starting this week which is exciting and also nerve wracking as that means I am so much closer to being done college. This is worse than when I finished high school, after I finish this no more school starts in September I just right into working somewhere.

That is going to be crazy like 15 years of school and now it is going to end. That is going to be a big change!

I enjoy these changes AFTER they happen, I learn a lot but before and as they are happening it is a very stressful experience that I would like to just skip. Also growing up sucks! There is so much more to do now, I pay bills and do taxes! It is crazy different than last year. Last year all I had to worry about was phone bill now I have rent to watch out for and I still don't understand taxes.

I would love to be sitting in a high school math class right now, that was something I could do. I miss math. Here is a tip for the future if you are really good and enjoy a certain course find something in college that actually has that course within it! Don't do what I did, I love math and went into a program that is all English class type work. English was my worst subject!

Another great tip, if you have many fears DO NOT move to the closest city that has all of that within it! I was only thinking about school when I did that now I sit in my room a lot, listen to all the sirens, and try to guess which it goes with. Fun times.

I Know Some Really Amazing People!

Remember when I said I lost and gained some friends... well I got back my lost friends. I really owe them a lot. I was an absolute bitch to them last year. They forgave me right away. I have so many great friends now. I used to be surrounded by the people who constantly bullied me and now it's all of the people who love me. I had 2 friends find out about me not eating very much food... for the past 5 years... and now they are making sure I eat something for every meal. I don't really like doing this but I appreciate their caring-ness. I found some people who I have never talked to are some really awesome people to know. They are some really great friends... even if we don't hang out all that much.

I also have a boyfriend now. He is amazing and perfect. I love him more than anything and everything. I know people are going to say that since we are only teenagers and don't know what love really is or something like that... well screw you. I know how I feel. I love him and I can't see myself with anyone else. He is my everything and he is what is bringing me out of my depression. I'm going to do everything in my power to make sure he is always happy no matter how things turn out. Hopefully we will get married and have a big family <3

Tiz all for now... peace out peeps :)

I have done literally nothing lately. I try to do things and just end up procrastinating so much that I just end up doing nothing until I fall asleep.

I mean I go on Tumblr all of the time but I don't really think that counts as doing something. Does it?

Picking what collage/university to go to has just been getting harder as more and more keep coming to my school to do presentations. I might have a good idea on where I want to go but the recommended grades are higher than my averages and the cost is really high.

Money sucks! I say we go back to trade and I just help around the school to "pay" for my classes and residence.


To those who have gotten through this without stressing...

 

 





High-5! Siriusly you are epic if you can do this without freaking out. I've had countless panic attacks and I'm only in my 3rd week of school!!!

 

 

 

Oh well, that all for now bye! Peace

Grade 12, University/Collage, Link Crew... Help?

I've just started grade 12 and my classes this semester are Advanced Functions, Physics, Biology, and Link Crew. I have to start thinking of what Collages I'm going to and what courses I will take. As a Link Leader I have to help the grade 9s. It feels like a lot for me. I'm not ready to grow up!

I tried talking to my mum about collage a couple days ago and she started balling. She's not ready for me to go, every day she makes up a bunch of little useless reasons as to why I can't go. My favourite reason is when she said "you can't go until you teach your little brother how to make coffee." My little brother is 6, I don't think I will be letting him near a coffee maker anytime soon. 

All of the people I've gone to school with since grade 2 or grade 8  are already looking at books from the certain collages and universities they are interested in. 

People have always told me that the high school years are the hardest and that when they are done I will feel much better. I'M NOT FEELING BETTER! I'm having break downs almost every night. I'm not ready to say goodbye to all of these people. I've lost friends but gained so many more and they aren't going to be going to the same collage as I am. I don't want it to end after this year I want it to go on. I want to stay with these people. 

My mood is probably going to get worse as the year goes on and we start going on University/Collage tours. 

ON another note my laptop broke a week ago and my computer guy finally fixed it. I'm excited to get it back. Every one thought the screen had died but apparently it was something else. 

Well that's all for now. Peach out readers

So many books!!!! *spoilers*

I just got back home from camping for 4 days! I brought 6 books with me and finished 4 of them!!! All I pretty much did was read in the cabin, my mum was not impressed. She actually yelled at me several times while I was reading Mockingjay and Tuck Everlasting. Anywhooooo here is what I thought of each book!
 (I wrote these "reviews" while I was reading the books at the cabin so if they suck I am eternally sorry! Forgive me?)

Catching Fire

   Ok so I siriusly love this book! I have made up my mind and I love this series! I also owe my cousin Ella a BIG thank you for getting me hooked on the books! I don't particularly like how Katniss didn't talk to Peeta at all after they got to the Victor Village. I think a simple "Hello, how are you?" every once and a while would have been nice. They saved each other in the Hunger Games a few times it is the least EITHER of them could do. President Snow, yeah I hate him with a freaking passion!!! I don't think I can narrow down what I hate about him, lets just say everything! Does that work for everyone? Okay good. The Quarter Quell's challenge thingy was so damn shocking! It was set to perfectly for Snow if you ask me (not to mention Katniss said something like that in the book). Cinna's arrest/capture made me so mad. I wanted to climb into the book and save him so badly! All of the Mockingjay stuff throughout the book is pretty cool. The Mockingjay is everywhere! I'm impressed. Does Katniss really love Gale? Yeah I don't think so, it's hard to tell but I honestly don't think she does. Does she love Peeta? Maybe. Possibly. I won't really know until I actually finish the books. I thought Haymitch's plan was a good plan, a nice plan but I don't like that Wiress was killed! Just uncool man!!..... WOMAN! Then of course to top it all off Peeta get's captured. What is going to happen to Peeta!?! Some one better rescue him damit!

Mockingjay

District 12 got destroyed! To be fully honest it sounds like a place I would love to see. Even with the skulls and burnt bodies (I sound psycho!!!). It just sounds really interesting. But if it were to happen to my small town I would probably have a major breakdown, I'm surprised Katniss didn't. She is one tough cookie! District 13 is pretty cool with their underground township. I don't really trust all of those people though, something just doesn't seem right. Peeta's interviews shocked me, I didn't know what to think. I can't imagine what they could have done to him to make him say that stuff. The stuff about the prep team shocked me a hell of a lot since they got beaten up for trying to get bread. I knew something wasn't right about district 13. The hospital and bombing in district 8 had me on the edge of my seat. In the end I was devastated  that all of those people were murdered but proud of Gale and Katniss for going into the fight and helping a hell of a lot. When the mockingjays showed up around Katniss and Pollux was a very touching scene, especially when Katniss started singing. When Peeta's blood was splatted on the tiles I might have gotten slightly scared for him and may have shrieked.... I'm a fangirl, we live as long as the characters do don't judge! Finnick's story about how had to get his body sold was very upsetting (I didn't cry or anything though), I wanted to give him a hug but I don't think that would have helped much. I thought the worst was over for a while and Peeta was back and Katniss was going to be happy until... he freaking chocked her and said she was a mutt! I don't know what I would have done in that situation! Probably freaked and had a mental breakdown. I think that having a bunch of people to just do camera shots of wrecking things was kinda stupid and a little pointless but a nice group of people either way. So many people died in this book! Finnick was just starting to have a family, uncool! When Katniss killed Coin I was very happy. I didn't like or trust her at all. Every time she showed up it felt as though I was reading Animal Farm, Snow would be the Jones's and Coin would be Napoleon. When Primrose got exploded I died it was too much! I loved the epilogue though. I liked how they didn't magically get better but I wish they had.
I understand why there are going to be 4 movies instead of 3 when I reached chapter 11 I thought I had read half the book.

Tuck Everlasting

I've read this book before for a school project I think. It was hard to stay focused enough to read the whole thing again but I did  it and all I could think of was if I would have drunken from the fountain and lived with the Tucks forever. I may be terrified of death and never want to think of it but I don't think I could handle watching the ones I loved growing and changing around me. I don't think I could handle an eternity of being 17, it just would work for me but I wouldn't pour the water out on a frog!

Number The Stars

I started reading this book in school once when I was in like grade 4 but we never finished it. I never knew why and now that I have finally read this book I still don't understand why we didn't read it. It's a great book! The code phrases the people used were very interesting and sometimes hard for me to decipher. I really loved how everyone in Denmark were doing so much to get the Jews to Sweden safely. I thought it was great when I found out that part of the story was true! I also liked how the handkerchief part was true also, Where they put dried rabbit blood and cocaine on the handkerchiefs to tamper with the dogs smelling so they wouldn't detect the Jews hidden away. At the very back of the book the author talked a bit about 2 people G. F. Duckwitz and Kim Malthe-Bruun. Duckwitz was a German official who told the Rabbis to warn their people that the Nazis had gotten a hold of the people who warshed at their synagogue   lists are were going to 'relocate' them soon. Kim Malthe-Bruun was a young man part of the Resistance. He was captured and executed by the Nazis when he was only 21 years old. In a letter he wrote his mother the night before he died the author found this paragraph and I think it's amazing. "... and I want you all to remember      that you must not dream yourselves back to the times before the war, but the dream for you all, young and old, must be to create an ideal of human decency, and not a narrow-minded and prejudiced one. That is the great gift our country hungers for, something every little peasant boy can look forward to, and with pleasure feel he is a part of       something he can work for."




That's all Loving readers. Peace Out!

The Fault In Our Stars & The Hunger Games

The Fault In Our Stars by John Green

This book is amazing ! I loved it so much!!!!! The characters are so good. The relationship between Hazel and Augustus was so touching. The trip to Amsterdam was so sweet but that's around the time when I started crying. I tell people I started crying on page 272 but that's only when the tears started hitting the pages. I felt so sorry for Isaac when girlfriend dumped him right before his operation. But now I know what I'm going to do for my friends when they are upset. I liked the line when Hazel notices that she is the healthiest person out of the 3 (her, Augustus, Isaac). I am now always looking for John Green books anytime I go into any store that sells books! Oh also anytime I see 2 "okay"s, 1 after the other, in book now my feels die a little bit more. Thanks for the amazing book John Green.

The Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins

I read the whole book and watched the movie in the same day and they were good!Yeah I know it’s a late start to the trend but I’ve never been one for following trends. I didn’t even think about reading the books until my younger cousin Ella tossed me the book and I became hooked. Next week she is expecting an e-mail from me telling her how I felt about the series… Honestly I don’t know how I felt about it. I don’t know if I like the book more than the movie or the movie more than the book. I don’t really know if I like or dis-like the series. It is a fact that I am going to stick with the series until I finish all 3 books and watch all 4 movies. Maybe then I will have a real idea on how I feel about this series but for right now I have no clue how to describe how I feel about it. So don’t expect me to go running around shipping Katniss with Peeta or Gale. (just between you an me after the movie I am hoping for Peeta. I guess I'll just have to finish the books to find out what happens.)


Tis all for now Loving readers! Peace!

Maleficent

When I was a kid I was always very upset when Maleficent's plans were foiled! It's not like I liked her, I just didn't hate her and was routing for her to win. 

When she captured Prince Philip I was slightly proud of her. She had actually caught him! Then those pesky fairies had to show up and help him escape! I loved her plan. I wanted it to happen. But nooooooooo Flora, Fauna, and Merryweather had to get him out! Then BAM!

 

 

Maleficent was a huge dragon! But she still couldn't defeat Prince Philip! I was very mad! I mean come on your a dragon just eat him or something!

 

*sigh* Yeah I was an odd child.

 

That's all for now Peace Out!!!